December 31st

      I picked up my journal this morning after a long meditation and series of appreciation text messages I sent out to my friends. 'it's time for business, I was set to pen down my plans for the new year - 2022. I had written down a list of things, as well as those I transferred from my phone's notebook to my journal. I paused for a moment and flipped to a page in my journal where I had written down my plans for 2021 and guyssss! It was like a dark cloud came over my head. I found out that most of the plans I had written down today were plans I had written down same time last year. I could only tick one or two boxes. It seemed like I had accomplished nothing. I started feeling bad, reflecting on how a whole year just passed by and I had achieved nothing.

    After that page, I flipped to the next and then to the next and the next after that. I ended up reading my whole 2021 journal. I didn't realize how hard this year had been until I did that. This had to be my most challenging year. It's was an emotional roller coaster. Almost every starting paragraph in my journal started with how depressed and how low I felt but one amazing thing is that they all ended with a prayer of Thanksgiving. I'm glad I was able to write in my journal those times I did. Also, some very important lessons I wrote down when the holy spirit was teaching me (as e dey hot) I benefitted from those too. After flipping through those pages, I took my pen, looked at the plans I was writing today like ; 'make millions' 'marry and give birth to 3 children this year' 'chill with the big boys' I drew a line and started on a fresh page.
     'Dear God, even though this year was really hard for me and I felt like I was dealing with a lot. Even though I hurt people, I was hurt, my relationships suffered, even though it looked like I didn't achieve the things I planned to achieve this year, I'm glad I never lost you'.
Despite how deep the valleys were this year, I experienced God in the most intimate ways this year and I'm grateful for that.
    One big lesson God taught me this year was on excellence as a way of life. And that is my only plan for next year. I'm no longer making plans on my own like I own my life, no more pressure on this young beautiful girl. Haters would hate, potatoes would potate, but I drip in Glory.
'He leads me and guides me to my place of destiny'
(one day I'd write a piece on what God taught me on excellence, but for now, it's not about being the best, but about being my best for God) ✌️.