Hair is definitely not for me 😩

     

       About the the end of last year, I was having serious hair issues. My mum kept persuading me to cut the hair. I would go home and hear stuff like ; "these days, people don't look at the hair again oh, all that matters is what is inside the head" . I never really understood if that was the consolation for the monkey I would look like if I cut my hair cuz after all, there's something inside the monkey's head.
     I endured for a very long time with my hair, I never braided my hair cuz I feared the alopecia that would come afterwards, I never applied any bond to my hair, I never left my hair unmade for more than a week, I gave it all it wanted just so it would grow in peace, but what did I get?
     I had a conference to attend around the end of last year and I thought to myself ; "for God's sakes, won't this hair just make one sacrife for me?"
So I decided to braid my hair cuz I felt I wouldn't have to pay the price for just this one time. After successful looking chic at my conference, I decided it was time to let go of my hair ( it had already started pulling out from my edges ). By the time I was done with loosening my hair, all my struggling edges were gone, it was so painful and it felt like my hair was telling me "Shey I warned you". I consoled myself with the thought of applying sheabutter (ori) and wearing wigs, at least until my edges grow back.
      Weeks past and I noticed that my edges were not growing at all, infact, the alopecia had began to encroach  into the middle of my scalp. With my little ponytail  I looked like one master of the shaolin temple😩😩. I thought of taking some strands of my hair to shiloh😥. Those were really trying times for me. I would stand by the mirror and all that ran through my mind were my mother's talks.
      Fortunately for my hair, ASUU declared a strike. I saw the opportunity as a fresh start for my hair and so I finally decided to let my hair down with or without my prince Charming😑😏. I searched through pintrest for any presentable haircut. I tried out some haircuts but after I started getting attention from some rugged looking boys on the road (that probable thought I was one of their own). I eventually summoned the courage and leveled my hair, I came out of that salon looking like a six year old boy in primary 3 named Chimobi. I wasn't bothered about how long it would take my hair to grow back (that was one thing it was good at).
I was already imagining myself having one of those natural hair accounts on IG and taking real sun kissed pictures with my edges😁😁.
     Currently, it's been one year post-haircut, and my hair length is about 4cm with extreme painful dragging of maximum of ten strands. My edges?? 😭😭 It looks like some group of rats feasted on my hair, it doesn't even look even.😭😭
    I had already lost hope and I was already considering going on low-cut and sticking to wigs but seeing the newly crowned miss universe just taught me that something could come out of this. We're both brown skinned girls, we're both on low cut, all I need now is the height 🌚🌝😌.